My hand trembled to the rhythm of my pounding heart as I stared at the parallel purple lines on the home pregnancy test.
It was definitely positive.
NO. This was all wrong! I had been praying for my best friend Sue to get pregnant, NOT me!
I wasn’t unhappy to be expecting our third child; I was secretly thrilled. But I dreaded telling Sue, not wanting to add more pain to her and her husband’s long struggle to conceive.
I turned to the Scriptures for help and landed in Luke 1. Back in the days before pregnancy tests, two unlikely mothers–the elderly Elizabeth and her teenaged cousin Mary–found themselves unexpectedly expecting. Each was a tender and timely encouragement to the other as they prepared to welcome their famous firstborn sons. I noticed that their pregnancies overlapped for a trimester.
As I read their intertwined pregnancy stories, a new prayer rose up within me: that Sue and I would be pregnant together!
Hand still shaking, but with newfound courage and hope, I picked up the phone. Sue listened quietly as I shared the news of my surprise pregnancy, along with my simple prayer request. We tearfully agreed to trust the Lord together to grant it.
“For nothing will be impossible with God.” (Luke 1:37, NAS)
A few weeks later, high on faith (and pregnancy hormones), I impulsively shared my prayer request with my ladies’ Bible study group. And instantly regretted it. The request was so specific and measurable. I felt like I had climbed out on a limb, vulnerable and exposed.
What if God didn’t come through? Now everyone would know!
Despite my fears, I continued to pray. Four months passed. Sue and I celebrated our 40th birthdays with two mutual close friends who were also 40–and pregnant! Sue was so gracious through it all, but I longed for her to join our ranks now more than ever.
My due date approached. Still no answer to our prayers. Even on the way to the hospital the misty morning of my scheduled C-section, I held onto the hope that Sue would conceive while I was still pregnant.
And you know what?
She didn’t.
I nursed my disappointment and confusion as I cared for my newborn daughter, Laurel. Sue and I had believed God. We had agreed together in prayer. But for some unknown reason, God had chosen not to grant our request.
Several months later, Sue and her husband felt led to pursue an international adoption. They chose Korea, because their orphaned infants were cared for in loving foster homes. After successfully completing their home study, my friends waited expectantly to be matched with a child. By this time Laurel was over a year old.
The call finally came. They had been selected to adopt a precious little boy! His name would be Luke. We rejoiced in God’s goodness together!
When they received more details about their son, however, they were surprised to discover that he was several months older than most babies who were adopted from Korea. They learned his birth date. We did the math.
I’ll never forget the moment we realized it. Luke was conceived two months BEFORE I gave birth to Laurel! Our babies were only seven months apart! God HAD answered our prayer, just not in the way we had expected! We were in awe of His faithfulness!
In my mind’s eye I could see her now. Somewhere in Korea, another unexpectedly expecting young mother, holding a positive pregnancy test in her trembling hand.
Two parallel purple lines, leading to one brave choice.
A sovereign God, orchestrating an incredible answer to prayer.
Fearful faith, becoming glorious sight.
Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways! (Romans 11:33, NLT)
Note: This post was shared with Sue’s blessing! Thank you, Sue, for letting me tell the story of our divinely intertwined pregnancies!
God is always working behind the scenes, orchestrating His perfect plan for us. We have to trust Him even when we don’t see anything happening with our human eyes. Oh how I want to pass the test.
Thanks for sharing your tender heart which encourages me to keep “looking up,” even when it’s hard!
Thank you, Shelley, for sharing your vulnerability in sharing the prayer request and how God is many times behind the scenes working. And He is always trustworthy. Your reminder is good, even if it plays out differently than we thought. Thanks!
Gina, thank you for being such a faithful blog follower and for your encouraging comments and thoughtful insights! Yes, His ways are higher than our ways!
Ruth Ann, this too shall pass and I am confident that you will pass the test! Hang in there, friend, and yes, keep looking up! He won’t let you down!