I really didn’t want to hear it. But she needed to say it. So I pressed the phone to my ear and listened as she shared her difficult story.
She had recently gone through an abortion. There were complications. She was traumatized.
I grieved. This was not the outcome I had been hoping for. One life ended; another life damaged.
The next morning, I opened my Bible app and numbly went through the motions of that day’s devotion. I skimmed the supporting Bible verses. The last two verses broke through my fog.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
(Psalm 139:16, NLT)
I believe life begins at conception. Psalm 139 is a well-known passage that teaches this truth. I thought of the unborn baby who was gone too soon, and mentally estimated the number of his* days.
I calculated the number of days his miniature heart beat.
Such a brief existence.
But his life mattered.
God saw him. God created him. God knew the number of his days, the number of his heart beats.
I was comforted.
God sees the baby’s mother too. He created her. He knows the number of her days, the number of her heart beats. He even numbers the hairs on her head.
He also knows she is injured and in need of support.
Her life matters.
I was challenged.
I continued to the second verse:
You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. (Genesis 50:20, NLT)
I had an overwhelming sense that the baby, now safe in the arms of His Maker, was speaking. It was as if he was explaining the purpose of his short time here on earth, and prophesying over his mother’s future testimony and destiny. It was a merciful message of Hope.
God will redeem this. The story is not over. Someday He will use it to save the lives of many others.
I believe this. I am claiming this for her. And for anyone else reading this who has been impacted by abortion.
Abortion is ugly. It silences one heart and wounds another. I’ve personally witnessed its destructive aftermath in the lives of friends and clients.
But I’ve also seen Jesus mercifully breathe life into its ashes and fashion something amazingly beautiful out of the pain.
He’s the only one who can.
It’s the reason He came.
We are confident that God is able to orchestrate everything to work toward something good and beautiful when we love Him and accept His invitation to live according to His plan. (Romans 8:28, The Voice)
*While I don’t know if this baby was a boy or a girl, I decided to refer to him/her as “him.” I feel “it” dehumanizes unborn human life.
An important note: If you have experienced an abortion in your past, please know there is forgiveness and healing in Jesus. He can redeem your story too. I’m here to help, whenever you’re ready.